Wednesday, July 28, 2010

What Do I Want?

I don't know why, but I think it is interesting that people are asking what I want or what I am going to do when we move. To be honest I don't know and I haven't thought about it. The only thing I know is that I am continuing with classes and hope to take two in the Late Fall term.

Right now my focus is on preparing for the transition at work and making sure everything is set for John and I since he can't be here to take care of things. Most of my focus is on us and what our next step is, but is that wrong or bad? A friend asked me what I was going to do and I told her I didn't know. I need to find what my talents are and what I am good at. I also told her that right now my focus is on John and making sure out family is set and he is happy. She said to me, "but you need to be happy as well". I'm happy as long as John is happy.

So much is going through my mind right now. One bad thing about making all these new friends is that most of them are moving to GA now. I know I am not the only one moving, but I do feel like I am missing part of his life. We talk every night and more on the weekends, but sometimes a conversation can only get you so far. I miss waking up to him or coming home and having him there. I keep trying to tell myself that in just a few months this will all be over and we will be together again.

It probably doesn't help that this has been a horrible week.

Thursday, July 22, 2010


I feel completely lost right now. I'm only at my job another eight weeks, I don't know where I'm moving to, I don't know what I am going to do when we move and my best friend isn't here. I feel really lost without John here.

I finished my class this past Monday and don't have school until the end of August. Hopefully I can keep up with this blog more and get other things done that need to get done.

We have been talking at least 30 minutes every night. Sometimes I think it was easier to write letters because you couldn't get mad or frustrated at one another. You could just write how your day went and tell them how much you love them. Now I am backing to trying to consult him about certain things and the evenings seem like they go on forever waiting for the phone call.

Several girls went down last weekend and some are going this weekend and it makes me miss him even more. It makes me wish I lived even a few hours closer because it would be easier to go and visit. At the same time I know he needs to stay focused. Right now he is ranked 40 something out of 140 or so candidates. I am really proud of him for doing so well. Everything counts in OCS, EVERYTHING!

Branching is in three weeks. I am looking forward to seeing John, but know finding what his job is will only be a temporary thing. He is still hoping to branch Medical Services, which we won't find out that day. He did get his application in and everything is set for it, but now we just have to wait and see. If he doesn't get that it looks like he wants to go Artiliary with a Chemical detail.

Does it get easier at they get promoted or is there always something you can't get out of the Army?

Monday, July 12, 2010

A Little Bit of This & That...

So sorry! I got home last Monday from GA and left this past Friday for Charlotte. I am finally home and not going anywhere until August when I am headed back to GA.

First piece of good news....I AM MOVING AFTER OCS! We finally decided that I am moving once OCS if complete. We don't care if we have to pay for the move we just want to be together. I put in my notice at work so things are coming together.

Ft. Benning is really nice. The area around it is ok and most places to eat are at least 15 minutes away, but not too bad. The Infantry Museum is a must see for anyone who goes down that way. Sadly I know my way around post better than John.

There were two bad parts to my week: 1) it took 8 hours to process all the OCS people Thursday; 2) John had duty from 4-8 am Saturday morning.

We are in week two of OCS. So far, so good for us, but John said they have already lost about 15 people just in the first week. I am still nervous that something will happen and he will have to be recycled, but everything happens for a reason. I can't stress about it.

Branch day is in a month. This is the day we will find out what job John will have with the Army and where we will go for training. I've heard it is boring, but I want as much time with him as possible. This is going to be a big day for him and if he wants me there I want to be there.

John's Top Three Job Choices:
1) Medical Services - Ft. Sam Huston, TX
2) Chemical - Ft. Leonardwood, MI
3) Air Defense - Ft. Seal, OK

Medical Services opens a slot for you if they feel you are qualified so we basically have to plan as if he will get his number two choice. There are a few prior service people that have joined his company at OCS that want Medical Service and It doesn't really matter to me what he gets as long as he is happy with what he is given. I know that the job he is given, he will be given for a reason.

He made me really happy the other night. While texting he told me joining the Army was the second best thing he has every done. That made me feel really good. His happiness is all that matters to me.

PS if anyone wants my e-mail or find me on Facebook

I promise pics to come soon!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Perfect Weekend!

I had the perfect weekend with John. Even though his Basic Graduation wasn't a big deal to him, I am still proud of him. He was so handsome in his Class B and ACUs.

We did get Thursday night through yesterday morning together. The OCS guys were processed in Thursday, which took FOREVER! It took about seven hours to process everyone through, so we lost pretty much the whole day. I can't wait to go back down. Only about another month to go.

He had his first PT test this morning and I am hoping it went well. It determines everything for OCS. I am sure he did well, but I am still so nervous. Several guys didn't get to class up yesterday and thankfully John did. I don't know what I would do if any of this got postponed. my guess it that my bags would be packed and I would be living in GA for a bit.

Saying goodbye this time wasn't as hard as when he left for Basic. I guess because I know we will be able to talk and I will be down there in just a few (I hope short) weeks. It still feels lonely without him though. Being in his arms was the best feeling.

Anyway, more to come along with pics!